| sometimes i wonder if all the things i do in this life are really worth it. and i know it's sappy but sunlight seems like the most rewarding part of this earth and it's other worldly, as in not really a part of this earth... so i'm waiting a half an hour on the street for the bus and i am hot and sweaty and tired and sick of not having a car after only one day of not having a car and i'm going crazy out here at the lake okay and so i think i might ask my grandparents for the money to buy benny's car cause it ain't coming from my dad. the other day arya said ain't and aimee was all "don't ever use that word again" that's kind of funny in a way like my dad is about language speak properly or don't speak at all. it's okay to say not so nice things about people as long as you use standard english... i'm not sad about the recent change in my life... i'm excited and i asked somebody out last night and that's exciting and i hope he's excited but he's probably not and i doubt it's even crossed his mind again after i asked him or whatever... we can't go out until next week and that's forever away and i'm tired of this shit shit this... JAIL THE HOMELESS my sister has a beautiful baby and i hope one day i have a beautiful baby too... or two i saw my mom's parents today for the first time in a long time my grandpa didn't know who i was... i had to tell him i was niaetta's second daughter... ha ... i hate my mom... i'm excited rich are you? victoria |
| My Fucking Interests Who I Used To Be Evidence | thanks for stopping - 2005-02-11 everyone is - 2004-04-22 haven't i said this before - 2003-11-04 i remember northern - 2003-09-09 i'm trying to relate to others - 2003-07-07 | Caught up... not caught up in the good way either, like caught up on school work or caught up on mortgage payments... just fucking caught up in everything... so fucking caught up in everything that I can't function... or at least well... I hope you know I am eternally sorry for how I am... for what I am... |