| So here I am at Chad's while his mom yells at him about how he's not running a halfway house... she's not really talking about me, but I added to it just by being here... I guess... hmpf... no worries... I'll most likely have an apartment by Monday one with Phil I think... ha... my dad said Phil didn't seem too bright... sometimes he can be so judgemental even though believe me I know he has a lot of pent up judgements against himself... ha... fuck... I want to have an apartment now so I can turn the heat all the way up if I want to... I'm cold here, but I can't complain it's warmer in here than it is outside and if I'd just fucking put my socks on I'd most likely be fine, but lately my toes have had the kind of cold in them that doesn't go away that seems as if it's part of your feet now... always cold and when you try to warm them it just makes the things you are trying to warm them with freeze into ice cubes... ha... my fingers are ice cubes from rubbing my toes... my toes sucked all the heat from my fingers and are still not satisfied... Victoria Manthei's toes seem as if they never will be satisfied... I love the winter especially homeless in the winter... because it just feels so romantic... so fucking romantic... ha cold and cold and happy for all the romance of it... I know what you might be wondering how does a homeless person update their INTERNET DIARY... ha... I have friends just not a house... ha... I'm a walking talking joke... joke joke yoke |
| My Fucking Interests Who I Used To Be Evidence | thanks for stopping - 2005-02-11 everyone is - 2004-04-22 haven't i said this before - 2003-11-04 i remember northern - 2003-09-09 i'm trying to relate to others - 2003-07-07 | Caught up... not caught up in the good way either, like caught up on school work or caught up on mortgage payments... just fucking caught up in everything... so fucking caught up in everything that I can't function... or at least well... I hope you know I am eternally sorry for how I am... for what I am... |