| floating through today waiting on the same things everyone else is waiting on telling my dad over and over i know i know i need to be in school i need to have my head nailed on and i need to pay my rent on time... the only car i was in today was air conditioned... i found out about you... my best friend is just as confused as i am and sometimes i think i should depend less on him because what about when i do depend less on him... what if i never depend less on him... i guess there really is no telling... i wish everyone had one tenth less things to worry about... not that it would make much relative difference... floating... on the lake again... seeing only clear blue sky and thinking only clear blue thoughts.... i'm not alone or unsure... i'm not tired or sad... i'm so sated i'm pacified i'm purified... money? don't even think about it... getting a job having a car... having a car to get a job getting a job to buy a car... anyone feel me here? i wish i was feeling something else... and i'm sorry all i do is disconnectedly complain... stupid... stupid... stupid... |
| My Fucking Interests Who I Used To Be Evidence | thanks for stopping - 2005-02-11 everyone is - 2004-04-22 haven't i said this before - 2003-11-04 i remember northern - 2003-09-09 i'm trying to relate to others - 2003-07-07 | Caught up... not caught up in the good way either, like caught up on school work or caught up on mortgage payments... just fucking caught up in everything... so fucking caught up in everything that I can't function... or at least well... I hope you know I am eternally sorry for how I am... for what I am... |