| just read that you talked to him... not that you shouldn't he is your brother and you deserve to talk to him... i just wish that i could talk to him... cause his smile his big lower lip his voice could make me so fucking so fucking so fucking safe... anything he said would make my day... i hate myself and love him and miss him and need to die... i'm more than in debt... i'm more than in debt... to you to your family especially to him... i know you won't ever read this... i know you won't ever read this... but i owe you all my life... so i should get my act together and quit whining... belly aching wishing hoping anything for shit to just fall in my lap... i love you and i love him... even though i know you won't read this... iloveyou... fuckitright? why fuck why |
| My Fucking Interests Who I Used To Be Evidence | thanks for stopping - 2005-02-11 everyone is - 2004-04-22 haven't i said this before - 2003-11-04 i remember northern - 2003-09-09 i'm trying to relate to others - 2003-07-07 | Caught up... not caught up in the good way either, like caught up on school work or caught up on mortgage payments... just fucking caught up in everything... so fucking caught up in everything that I can't function... or at least well... I hope you know I am eternally sorry for how I am... for what I am... |